High School Image

So, yesterday I was talking with a beautiful friend of mine in Florida. We briefly talked about who we were in school and how much we were loaners. In elementary and middle school I was definitely a loaner, but it wasn't until high school where I actually attempted to find an image that fit me. Freshman year I went for this whole Euro/Retro look because I was so into electro dancing which was called Tecktonik back then. They have this funky style, with bright neon colours and funky jewelry. That went on for quite some time until I sort of realized how ridiculous I looked in all the pictures with the outfits I was wearing. It was time to move on, but to what? One group of kids at school that stood out to me the most were the hippy hipsters. They were sort of in between hippies and hipsters, they weren't as dirty and clumsy as hippies, but not as tidy and clean like hipsters are. They sort of had their own crowd they knew throughout town because they always hung out in downtown. Their characteristics were a lot like mine, they always chill in coffee shops, listen to indie/alternative music, they love tea+coffee and beer, and are just so laid back. Plus they always liked having me around (everyone did/does surprisingly), and there was a boy in the gang who I had a big crush on and as a stupid high school girl you do anything to impress the guy you like. Off to Goodwill I went and bought just about every plaid shirt, skinny jeans, a beanie, and grandma shoes they had. I also made a bunch of hemp jewelry! I became official the next day, the girls had me hang out with them more, the guys liked me more, it was nice. One problem though was that everytime I did hang out with them, I never had anything to talk about with them? Literally, I never had a thing in common with them that was an interesting subject to talk about. I couldn't understand why they liked me so much, when all I felt was this big gap for the longest time. I was a pretty cute hippy hipster from sophomore-junior year, but I wasn't sure I'd see myself with these people for the long run. I gave up a lot of my plaid shirts and all my hemp jewelry (well my mum actually threw the jewelry away cause she thought it was demonic since the materials were made with hemp...she's crazy). I went to being back to whatever and still maintained a good relationship with everyone from every group just like I've always have. My senior year I snuck into an assembly at McKay High School which was suppose to be my home school if I hadn't gone to Early College HS. I sat with this one girl I knew back in middle school, she was part of the over-achiever group of kids. Their the ones who are presidents of every club, doing all honors classes, and everything you wish you had. At one moment I randomly asked her "If I were part of clique, which one do you think I'd fit in with the most?", her response really surprised me. "Mmmmm personally, to be honest, I can't see you being in any of these cliques. I see you being by yourself like you were/are because you're too good for any of these fools." It sort of made me sad, but good at the same time. Growing up in American schools, kids only learn which group they need to get in instead of being themselves. I mean even in children cartoons there are cliques, and they over exaggerate them like crazy. Being yourself is more important then anything in the world, and I'm glad I went down that path.
One thing I miss bout my hipster days though, was the music. I listened to everything from The Kooks to The Bravery and The Pigeon Detectives to Kent. Those bands always had the best electric guitars and mad bass skills that I loved to do air guitar with. It's some good stuff!